I have this intense desire to destroy everything that has been created.
I love to be brash, outspoken, loud, expressive & assertive.
Iam a bit confused if I am a woman or a man.
As a woman I am not supposed to be all of this.
This confusion gave birth to the wish that I be born as a man.
As a child I always felt, ‘Wo man guys are lucky. They can step out of the house any time, go anywhere, hang around anywhere & no one would stop them.’
I had so much aggression in me but, as I grew I evolved or rather was made to believe it is in my interest to show restrain in my behaviour. i.e. be feminine.
I gradually started understanding being feminine means being gentle in ways, moves, expressions, words.
But, that is just not me. So am less like a woman?
Why can’t I just be me & still not be scorned at?
I hate stereotypes ……
I would prefer not to be known as a man or woman but, more as a human being.